Today's post is about bullying and self love, regardless of your dress size, height, sexual orientation, whether you got long hair or short hair, curly hair or straight hair and anything else in between that. So-called flawless skin or a face adorned with freckles, if you're a man or a woman. So what if you have a slightly bigger nose, does it define you? No. Personally, I have a nose that is slightly turned up at the end, from the side it looks like a little ski slope but from the front, it slightly resembles a pig, but who cares? I like my nose and I wouldn't want to change it.
I never even took full body pictures of myself.
I have spent way too many years, hating my body or despising some other part of me and it has taken me a long time to come to terms with the fact that I have a bigger body than a lot of the women I know but it's my body and it's been through a lot with me, so I'm going to love and respect it. I don't care that not everyone will love my body, as long as I'm comfortable with it, it's all that matters to me. I spent too many years being put down by an uncle and a really nasty step dad and even though both have been out of my life for six years now, up until about a year ago the things they said to me still affected how I felt about myself. When you spend so long hearing people say "Maybe you shouldn't eat that, you're getting really fat." or pretending to joke by asking me, "Are you sure you're gonna fit through that door?" Of course, I laughed it off and ignored it but why should anyone feel like they have the right to say hurtful things like that to people.. Especially to teenage girls who are easily influenced. I spent years with my size fluctuating, I'd starve myself for days and exercised till I vommited. For months, every night I ate four to five chunks of exlax all because I didn't want to be the "fat" girl anymore. I wanted to shut bullies like my Uncle and Step dad up, but all I ended up with was severe hunger pains and cramps that woke me up through the night. They made me feel so low and so bad about myself I didn't realise what I was doing to my body, I felt like I was worthless and that I'd be better off dead. They had so much power over me and it made me feel suffocated. I hated myself, I self harmed and I attempted to take my own life a handful of times and I let them make me feel like that. I didn't stand up to them and I didn't have a voice against them. Bullying doesn't just happen in schools, it happens anywhere, as long as there are ignorant and heartless people in the world, there will always be bullies.
Who cares if I'm in love with a girl..
I've been called names for being overweight, for being "weird" and for loving a girl and if I could say one thing to those people today it would be "I LOVE MYSELF!" I am proud of where I am today because I am better than them people, I would never be mean about someone to make myself better because it won't make me any skinnier or it won't make me prettier, all I'd acheive is hurting someones feelings and I'll look like a total bitch. I've been on the receiving end and even now there's those ignorant people that still love to have an opinion on me, but I have realised that their opinion says a lot about them and nothing whatsoever about me. Nobody has the right to make others feel worthless and you're the only person that can let them make you feel worthless. We are HUMAN, we all have feelings, we all should be a little kinder to people, we all should be a little kinder to ourselves. Sometimes, you truly don't know how you're words affect people whether it be a compliment or an insult, words can be very powerful.
All that matters is that I'm happy.
So yes, we do need to love ourselves and embrace our flaws, that's what makes you, you. The opinion of one person or even a select few people shouldn't affect how far you hold your head up. Flaws are what make you beautifully imperfect and not to mention, human. We all have something we would probably change about ourselves if we ever got the chance, but if we were all perfect we wouldn't differ from each other. So, next time someone calls you a fat cow or a skinny bitch, tells you that you shouldn't love someone that's the same gender as you, or your nose is too big or that it resembles a pig.. Stick your middle finger up, hold your head high and show them that you're comfortable in your own skin and that you're not going to let small minded people keep you down anymore.
Thank you for reading..
Much Love, Karlee x